My New Years Eve was nothing sort of special; I figured with this year being my last NYE in Germany, I wanted to spend it with my best friend marathoning action movies, instead of partying into the new year. We made it to a tradition to watch Rush Hour at least once a year, but this time we decided to look into some other action comedies, like Men In Black (which I never watched before, truth to be told) and also with us being avid Detective Conan fans since childhood, we also binge watched all the good old movies. I can't believe the manga is already running for 20 years with every case surprising me every time with its complexity and cleverness.
2015 has been a rollercoaster of a year for me - in terms of eventfulness it definitely topped 2014.
Unfortunately with a lot of great things happening, also I experienced and suffered more blows and lowpoints than ever before. But now having safely arrived in the new year I can certainly conclude that this past year did make me grow as a person.
With this post I don't even want to trip and go back to the bad memories of the past year; I'd rather conclude the good things that happened to me. So, in no chronological order, here I go:
1. I cut my hair.
This may be the greatest
2. I went to an exchange to Italy.
Though I am sure it could have been better, in conclusion I could say that I did esperience a lot of good things on this exchange. My Italian definitely got better in its casual use (though after I came back I noticeably decreased in my fluency) and I got to see tons of the culture and tradition, as the city I went to was rather a small one near the sea. The view from my room was absolutely gorgeous and though it was the beginning of May, I recorded a high of 30°C there - I couldn't even dream of a heat like that here in Germany that early! The exchange bonded us as the whole course (or at least the girls) together, even though we barely spoke in the almost two years we've been in the course together before, and I was truly glad I also got to celebrate my birthday with these wonderful ladies. Also, midnight skinny dipping ftw!
|Riomaggiore, the beautiful little village we stayed in at the Mediterranean Sea|
3. The class trip to Italy.
Surprise, surprise, not even a month after I came back from the exchange I went to Italy again - this time with my English class though. Although we also have been together for almost two years, it has been our first trip as a class together and, truthfully, I loved this trip even more than the exchange. Surely, there were some unexpected hidden faces uncovered, but as I was friends with most of the class it did not affect me that much. Our homeroom teacher surprisingly turned out to be hilarious, sweetly patient and sympathetic, that I could never ever hate her for doing the most boring English class ever again. Some people are just the very definition of a cinnamon roll, and my teacher is one of such. The other accompanying teacher - my Italian teacher -, however, is the one we as a whole class came to hate from time to time. I still harbor a hidden grudge against him
4. My first job experience.
At the end of the summer I finally got my first part-time job as a waitress at a fast food restaurant. First things to clear up: In Germany laws make it incredibly hard for underaged students to get a job. The government does permit citizens over 16 to work legally, but only until 8pm. So naturally, most of the employers tend to seek for workers that are not that limited. However, restaurants are usually more relaxed in hiring this case, so that was how I got my job. Though the bad part is, they tend to exploit underaged employees, which I sadly experienced. They either pay us terribly lower than the minimum wage, which was in my case the reason why I resigned after not even two months of working, or they let them work way later than until 8pm; my friend often has to work unter 4am in the morning, which for underaged students should be unacceptable,but oh well. Either way, I did experience and learn much from my time there, like how to work quickly and efficiently till knowing what kind of cleaning supplies to use for the kitchen. Rather than a disappointment, I'd see the my work there more as a life experience I won't forget.
5. The hell that has been P5.
In our senior year of high school we had to present a P5, which is essential for the German graduation (Abitur). In a nutshell the P5 is similar to a bachelor thesis - with a written product, presentation and all that drama. As the teachers gave it so much pressure in its importance we naturally felt the burden. That was why the first two months of 2015 felt like hell to me - for some days I literally lived off coffee. But even after overcoming internal crisises, in the end I surprisingly got a full 15 points for our work. And even if the topic of the work does make want to redo it (as it was just so. boring.), the full score definitely makes up for it.
6. Friendship goes behind years.
I formed an unexpected close friendship with one of the new girls in my English class, so close that we could practically be sisters at this point. We both went through ups and downs together that last year, even though we actually became close just in February. But you know how some people just click and it feels like you've know them all your life? That's how I feel with that friend, and it definitely made my year a better one. Same thing also happened with a girl I got to know two years ago, though our friendship really developed to be a strong bond last year; she lives in a city near me and we got to know each other through mutual friends. I can't believe I have been missing out to such wonderful people, while others I endured for years, always forcing myself to tie a bond between us.
Is it too late now to say sorry (to myself)?
7. Discovering my love for tea.
A.k.a my friends went on a week-long trip with me to Berlin and they infected me with their obsession for tea. They both literally drink a minimum of three cups of tea a day (I'm not even kidding!), and with Berlin not having very clean tap water, they forced me to drink the liquidy goodness - in the 33°C hot late summer!
Granted, it made breaking my bad habit of always drinking coffee, as I don't drink soft drinks, easier. I can proudly say now that I reduced my coffee intake to two to three times a month, and instead, I bought a lot of healthy herbal teas not only to detox but also to relax.
8. Rediscovering and strengthening my relationship with my siblings.
As I was in my slump I distanced myself so much from my family, to the point where the only thing I did as we saw each other once a day was only to greet or nod. Thinking back to that time, it is such a shame I let myself belive that cutting myself off my family would help me concentrate on school or broken friendships. After all, I found the best friend I was searching for in my sister. Now with me in my late teens and her in her mid teens the age gap between us doesn't seem as big anymore; we now have similar problems to share. And with our personalities being very much opposites we got to help each other to learn and grow, as we often have long-night talks about every random things. She was also the one encouraging me to write down my story ideas and continue my story I abandoned eons ago.
My brother and I also got a lot closer; not a day goes before we hug each other, even if he does it rather grumblingly. We also do workouts at least three times a week together, and going through the tough fitness regimes together definitely helps me pulling through.
|This is the smoothie mixer I have from wmf, |
it's pretty big compared to other mixers
9. Healthy life COME ON!
My mother has been absolutely obsessed with juicing everything that can be juiced, and so she bought herself a smoothie maker and ever since I have been forced with her healthy liquidy meals. Though my mom doesn't really get the concept that a smoothie is in no case a meal substitute, she definitely helped me
10. Giving less shits about school.
If there is one thing that I would tell my one year younger self, that would be to not lose my mind about grades. But then again, I wouldn't have come to that conclusion if I didn't go through the emotional shit of worrying about grades. Seriously though, I could have save the time and energy on doing things that are actually doing good for me mentally. Good grades unfortunately don't equal not guarantee happiness and a healthy mental state, and I am glad to discover this fact for myself on time. Instead I dedicate my time and energy to healthy activities - physically (like cardio and workouts) and mentally. I got back to my hobby of writing (even though I am not that great), thinking up plots for short stories and watching movies and tv shows I have been neglecting for the better half of the year.
I got over my presumptuous me when it comes to music (I tended to stick to the artists/bands I already know and never bat an eyelash towards rookies) and finally opened my eyes to the amazing artists and bands I've been missing out (SEVENTEEN! Childish Gambino! Tinashé! Kehlani!).
Shout out to 8tracks, Vine and my friend C. for these discoveries! My ears have been blessed.
In conclusion: 2015 has given me so much experience to grow and develop into a more positive person.
With my graduation coming up, 2016 will surely be my hardest school year yet, but I am positive that with all the growth I did the past year I will make the graduation exams my bitch. But what I am more excited about is my well-deserved gap year I will be spending in Indonesia. I haven't been there for so long and I can't wait to see what will await me in the now-estranged home country of mine. One thing for sure: I definitely have to brush up my Indonesian language skills before.
I hope y'all have a wonderful start into the new year!
EDIT: I really like writing recaps like this, so I might making this a monthly thing, what do you think? Of course I will include everything book- and tv show-related I did that month.